The Day I Discovered My Worth

the day I discovered my worth (1)

Warning: this is one of those down and dirty posts. Not a fun countdown with colors and flowers and fun tips on how to make adulting easier. This one comes from a place of gut-wrenching horror.

Okay, maybe it’s not that bad.

But it is about me discovering something important – my worth. And the fact that it took a few  hurtful (but important) events to help me realize it.

  1. I once held a job for six years where I did the exact same tasks as several of my colleagues in the organization, yet I earned about $15,000 a year less than my counterparts. When I voiced my concerns, the red tape and bureaucracy that plagued the organization prevented anything from being done about it.
  2. I had a feeling that despite our promises of love and fidelity, I was once in a romantic relationship with someone who was also seeing another woman. When I expressed my concerns, he told me I was wrong – but in fact when a chance circumstance almost put us all in the same place, he had to come clean and tell the truth. And little did I know – she was the main woman and I was the side piece.
  3. I agreed to photograph a community event at a discounted rate for a non-profit agency that I greatly respected.  When I arrived at the event, I was given instructions on what photographic shots they wanted and when I asked where I could place my camera bag and other equipment,  I was told that request could not be accommodated. I was expected to shoot the entire event while carrying my camera bag and equipment. The organization wasn’t willing to let me use a corner of the room for my equipment. The equipment I would be using to photograph their event.

While these events did not happen within the same week (or same month even), they did happen frequently enough for me to make a connection and eventually evaluate my self-worth. For many it may be easy to say “That would never happen to me,” or “You should have stood up for yourself more,” or “Why did you let any of that happen?” I can’t say that I thought any of it was okay at the time, I will tell you though, when I was  in the midst of a weird or uncomfortable moment that challenged my self-worth, I wasn”t always able to think on my feet and react the way I should. In each of those moments, the shock left me paralyzed enough that I couldn’t advocate for myself nor could I establish the appropriate boundaries.

What happened as a result though is that I have been able to process my feelings and figure out my next steps. And those next steps began with honoring myself and knowing my worth. Something that I hadn’t done in many, many years. 



I started by taking an inventory of myself. I needed to evaluate what happened in my past that somehow made it okay for me not to know my worth. And to be totally honest, it wasn’t until I became an entrpreneur and I started looking at the pricing structure for my business services more closely that I realized I needed to take a hard look at my worth in my personal and professional lives. Once I took a look, I discovered some things that helped in getting to know my worth a little bit better.


  1. 1. If you feel like a side piece, you probably are. Fyi, side pieces exist in personal and professional lives. If you’re good enough to exist behind the scenes, putting all you have into something, but the other party won’t honor your contributions – you.are.a.side.piece.
  2. If someone tells you they don’t deserve you or in the case of business – they can’t afford you, they are probably right.
  3. If you are questioning whether or not you are valued, ask yourself this: Is there a respect for your purpose? This question is kind of tricky because first YOU must demonstrate the respect for your purpose before anyone else can. If you’re not living in your purpose, read this.
  4. Once you know your worth, another person’s response is about them not you. You can’t and shouldn’t convince, beg, persuade, or strongly encourage someone to know that you are awesome. If they can’t see it, move on.
  5.  Change the role social media has in your personal life. As social media continues to dominate our perceptions about the world, it is easy to become distracted with the difference between perception and reality. Use appropriate personal information and sharing filters on what you post and what you read from others (family and close friends included). Take a break to regain focus if you need to, and remember, no two life journeys are the same, even if you appear to be walking together.
  6. When all is said and done – don’t hold a grudge. Forgive the other person or entity. If they don’t know your worth, they probably don’t know their own. Reconcile the situation by acknowledging your feelings, learning from it, reaffirming your loyalty to yourself, and forgiving.

Part of the growth on my journey with self worth came from reading the books listed below (affilliate links included). I’d love to hear your thoughts on self-worth or even your own personal journey with it.

Big Magic

The Universe Has Your Back

May Cause Miracles

She Reads Truth


The Year of Yes


3 thoughts on “The Day I Discovered My Worth

  1. #6 a thousand times over!! funny what enlightenment my forties have brought! At 43 I’m still learning to stand up for myself in the workplace….getting better all the time 😉 Although no two journeys are the same, I’m eternally grateful for others experience, insight & willingness to walk along side me.

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